From here on out

Hows about this: I have a blog dedicated to intellectual ponderings, theories and beyond typical experiences as opposed to focusing all of my energy and attention into describing people, what they did, how I remember feeling, and so on and so on. It gets so tiring, no? I keep somewhat of a journal in one of my spiral notebooks I lug around at school and when I look back on the entries, I'm overwhelmed by what petty, insignificant events they seem to be based on. It's a little ridiculous. Thing is, people change, feelings about people change, feelings about the events that tranpire between people change. Why try to grasp so tightly onto something so fickle? So, there. I have wiped my slate clean of all unimportant detail and am excited to move on to the bigger and better aspects of human connection. The topic of today is probably the most complex science known to man: dreams and their meanings. To me, dreams are a vital part of experiencing life and understanding the subconscious state. I don't know that most would agree with me, but, in my case, dreams convey so much meaning in my own life, it's almost maddening. You know that feeling when you wake up and for a minute (maybe two if you slept extremely well) the haze of the dream and the rules of the alternate reality are in fact reality and you think, feel and live the dream lucidly. Isn't it fantastic? Or vice versa! When you are in bed, slowly drifting off and, if you can catch it, your mind goes absolutely crazy. Either it is jumping from one thought to the other at the speed of light or your mind is manufacturing some sort of theory or fundamental law of nature. It's the most intense feeling to realize that your mind is set free of the normal worries and ordinary thoughts and is instead going places you've never thought of before. Unfortunately, it always seems like once you catch what your brain is doing, you've realized where you are, who you are, what you have to worry about, etc. That letting go is something that I feel like is very hard to do without a little help. Speaking of that little help... have you ever tried marijuana? It is all the feelings of dozing or just waking without the whole forgetting it actually happened bit. Granted, you may forget some things while high. First time I did it, I didn't really remember getting from the airport to the highway to my house much at all. But, if you really expand your mind, you can think up so many phenomenal and intricately woven thoughts it's thrilling. I remember my first reactions and very last reactions of the trips the most and the part in between were pretty much a bummer. Never smoke weed with people you don't necessarily know that well and/or aren't comfortable with. So, for the next time, I plan to be around my greatest friends. I can't wait to delve into that dream/think world again. Honestly cannot wait.